Happy Halloween!!

Happy Halloween everyone!
Candy and Bildad are back to celebrate with us!



Have a fun and safe Halloween.

"No One Else Can Satisfy"

Tonight at church there was a study on The 2 Kingdoms, (notes and doodles from tonight's service to come in it's own post), the closing song is what prompted the title of this post. When I wrote this over a month ago it was originally going to be called, "Without" or "Void", but I wouldn't post it until I finished the illustration. I am thankful for my stubborn nature in this case because this new title suits the sentiment of the post much better.



Is it worth it to be without? So many people "experience" so much more than me. Living and growing up in a Godly home has its own dangers. If you are not careful many of the blessings that you have grown up with that have been constants and that were hard earned by the structure and sacrifice of a Godly home can devolve into assumptions. That deception can be very dangerous, allowing you to slip into the trap that everyone else has these blessings, and in this skewed perspective you see the world as having their cake and eating it too. Overlooking all the hard work and sacrifice your friends, family, and other loved ones have invested. It is key to remain in the Word on a regular basis and have a constant prayer life.

This will equip you with a Godly perspective in a world with a corrupt paradigm. Remember it boils down to trust, do I trust the Lord? Let me first ask if I can trust someone if I don't have a relationship with? Am I developing my relationship with he Lord? Or are we stagnate friends who see each other but once or twice a year? When the Lord tells me that that flame over there is dangerous and hot, despite its beauty do I have to burn my hand to know receive that as truth? Is it worth the blister to feel it's "warmth"? I have lived a life where I have tried submit my desires to the Lord, and I as of late I have grown very tired. I need the Lord more than ever, I need Him so much it hurts. He is like air to me now, which is awesome, but at the same time when I am selfish and stupid and separate myself from Him with sin in my life I feel the sting even more now.

Lord I thank you so much for the blessings you have given me in a wonderful family, powerful friendships, and a Church that I find refuge. I love you so much, and please let me not be swayed when I see the world frolicking in sex, bathing in alcohol, and sleeping in apathy. Help me to know each of these come with a price, and You have bought me with your Blood. And Your blood is worth so much more then these tedious and worldly joys.

I love You.

Help me.

The Jacques Carnival

Chuck and Courtney got married today! It was a beautiful wedding and awesome reception! And by awesome I mean AWESOME! It was a carnival, ferris wheel and all! So cool! They had game and prizes! I used all my tickets from the games to get Starbucks Gift Certificates! The only down side is that I spent too much time at the games and such that I didn't dance at all...




(Horrible picture of me, but its the only one I got with the happy couple.)

I drew the posted for the carnival as my wedding present to them...



...sorry if that comes off as cheap.

And to top it off I got a caricature done! :D

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Hey guys! Oh no am I drawing patronuses again? Who knew?



I wonder what I am drawing thses for...

Church Notes & A Prayer

It was a long week, but the Lord is very faithful. Here is something I wrote earlier in the week, and some notes from church last week.

Lord I need you so much right now, I am so confused and tiered. I am happy to say that I am closer to You than I have even been before, but it hurts and I am so tiered. I'm so tiered of hurting! Sometimes I just wish I could go home, Heaven has never been so sweet. Some days I wish I could just curl up in your arms and rest, but then other days I am ready and willing to go to the ends of the Earth for You Lord. Why am I so fickle... why is it so hard for me to do what You want me to do? It's crazy how I can be filled with your love and joy but still ache on such a deep level. I supposed that is the conundrum of the Christian walk. Please Lord help me to endure for you. I love you so much.

The Heroic "Villan"

Today I had to turn a student in for something pretty serious. Part of me didn't want to, I wish I could have just made it better myself. A small part of not wanting to was because I didn't want him hating me. I didn't want him to see me as a villain. But I realized that in this case I am going to have to be the bad guy to do the right thing. I just hope i a few years he understands that I was honestly trying to help him.

Being a sub sucks sometimes... I get attached to these darn kids.

Magic is Might!

The monkey quails under the might of the magical winged cat!

P.S. Ryan, TAG your it!! :P

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This weeks doodle started to look more like a book cover as I colored it so I made it into a "Book Cover".
Hope you all enjoy.

Not-So-Random Doodle

This is a birthday fairy.

;)